It's looking more and more like I am going to have to get one of those full-time, out-side-of-the-home kind of jobs that so many people seem to be into. It's not the we're desperate for money - not quite - but the whole point is that I'd like to not get to the point of desperation before doing something.
Believe me when I say this is not something I want to do. I like working from home. Looove it, in fact. Love love love it. And I adore being at home with the Babby more than just about anything, even if I do complain about it a wee bit now and then. I kind of figured that by the time she was almost two years old, the thought of going to work while she was at daycare wouldn't make me cry like it did when she was two months old, but I guess I was wrong.
Check it out, it's pro-grade BabbyMama:
I don't want to go broke, though, and it's not like the BabbyDaddy has been holding out in terms of how much money he can make, so this is the only option. I can't even get some silly nighttime job so I'm still home during the day, because the BabbyDaddy's schedule can fluctuate by quite a bit.
I'm trying to look at the bright side of things... like not feeling like I have to track every penny or not worrying that if I accidentally ding someone's car, that's that. Being able to buy more organic foods and take the Babby out more.
But I can't stop thinking about the dark side of things. Especially getting to see the Babby for, what, all of a half hour in the morning and an hour and a half at night, five days a week? Not being able to have another kid while I'm still fairly fertile, if at all?
I'm sure all my working mama friends want to knock me upside the head for being so melodramatic - after all, it's not like working mothers and childcare are some relatively new thing, even if that's what some people want to believe* - but I'll admit that I am a big emotional wussy who is just more comfortable and happier in her own home with her own family than she is in a professional environment full of strangers.
So, anyone know anyone who's looking for an experienced writer, editor, proofreader, blogger, or blogging/SEO consultant?
*A comfy stay-at-home life for teh ladiez is something that has mainly been accessible to certain economic classes of women. Women have worked outside of the home throughout history and there has been childcare (often provided by family members, but not always) for just as long.